Me as a Ghost

[Verse]
It’s been a whole damn year
Since you made me disappear
I was hiding under sheets
To forget that I was here
The house was not a home
I was always on my own
I tried to write my pain
Visualise it, give it names

And you said I was depressed
Why? Take a fucking guess
Though maybe that’s not fair
You did try to help me there
You said it wouldn’t last
All the bad shit comes to pass
Were you talking for yourself
Or about my mental health?

[Refrain]
And breathing was the hardest thing
And slowly you stopped listening
I was fading right before your eyes
I felt ashamed to be alive

[Post-refrain]
Then I wasn’t sure
If you’d recognise me as a ghost

[Verse]
This is ol’ me as a ghost
Dead quiet for the most
Got two hollow holes as eyes
But somehow I still can cry
And I can’t take up my space
You can’t even see my face
My feet don’t make a sound
When they clash against the ground

And my body is a shell
I’m in my own private hell
Where nobody talks to me
And I cry myself to sleep
Nothing soothing ever works
And my dreams are even worse
‘Cause there I’m somewhere else
Then I wake up in this mess

[Refrain]
And breathing is the hardest thing
And slowly you’ve stopped listening
I’m fading right before your eyes
I feel ashamed to be alive

[Bridge]
I told you of a dream I had
Where I’m walking down along a path
Someone I know walking behind me
And I hope that they will recognise me
But they don’t say a word
So I realise that I’m invisible

[Verse]
Now it’s been a fucking year
Since you made me disappear
And I wonder sometimes
If I ever cross your mind
And I never told you then
But that someone in the dream
That someone was you

[Outro]
And you didn’t recognise me
No, you didn’t recognise me
You didn’t recognise me as a ghost

Written by Viola Ugolini
Produced and mixed by Federico Leotta
Mastering Engineer: Jan Pawlikowski

Drums and guitars recorded at Xanax Recording Studio in Catania, Italy

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